Im writing this to share, get advice and maybe finally knock some sense into myself. Why can't I just let go completely, there is a little part of me that still clings on to hope. Hope that he will be the man I used to know.
This is my weekend
Friday - we are broken up again, I was doing ok, went out with some friends. He shows up at my house later to get his stuff. He gets his stuff and leaves. I feel like Im making progress, not engaging him in back and forth stuff. He asks me in an short tone, why I changed my garage door code. I said because we are no longer together and I needed to set some boundaries. He doesn't seem to understand my explanation.
Saturday - I go to yoga - that is my thing - and he shows up. He tells me he wants to be friends and look out for me until I get settled. I told him I am fine, and don't need his help.
Sunday - He sends me 2 dozen roses, expresses his undying love for me and promises he will never leave me. When I tell him I can't trust in his words, he is honestly confused as to why I won't just come around and give him another chance! He buys a book called Love and Respect and says he is so excited he found the solution to all our problems.
Monday - I receive an email saying that the Holy Spirit spoke to him in a dream and he can no longer be with someone like me, a narcissist, who is enabling her children to be narcissists also.
I told him I don't want this mess anymore. Im fed up, know this is so unhealthy, yet deep deep down miss him. I need to get away forever. My friends said to dump the roses on his porch, but I just threw them in the trash. I feel that going to his house and dumping them on his porch is a form of trying keep contact. I need to get away completely!
Does he truly not comprehend how absurd his expectations and reactions to my pulling away are? Is that part of a PD?