Hi. Newbie here, dealing with Paranoid PD (I'm pretty sure)

[torn]

Hi,
I want to start by saying I have this awful feeling in my stomach and my anxiety is way up there, and I think it's because as soon as I type some of what I go through on a regular basis, it might become more real to me. I've been "sweeping it under the rug" for 9 years now. I am pretty sure my husband has paranoid personality disorder. It hit me when I was doing my psych rotation in nursing school about 5 years ago. He meets well over the needed number for criteria, if not all 7.
I think I'm also very nervous right now, because as I was reading through some of your threads and stories, I realized that many of you are divorced. Is there anyone out there who has found a healthy way to cope? I love him so much and he is a terrific guy when he is not accusing me of various things. We still have fun together, we take trips, we run a business together... We also have a 7 year old son. I'm feeling so torn lately though, as it is getting worse. I'll save details for another time. I'm just glad to find a group of people who might just "get it"
Ugh, mental illness is so frustrating!!! 
Thanks for being here.

[Terryglo11]

I can applaud you for your honesty and courage.  It is one thing to be ignorant and frustrated but totally different to understand the disease and feel that you have to do something.   Right now maybe you don't have to do anything.    I am not demeaning your distress only validating that take some time to do the research read all you can get your hands on.   

I have always found that self study sometimes can be more beneficial then a professional.   Once your Face the problem, Accept that it will make you feel beat up sometimes then Practice what I call Floating and Observing,   Then just let some time pass.     Once you have some tools and some rest you can follow your heart in whatever you feel will help the situation.   

Good Luck

[mathcorechick]

welcome torn,

the 'committed to working on it' section of the boards would also be a good place for you to check out in addition to the boundaries section of the toolbox. 

http://outofthefog.net/forum/index.php?board=7.0

[hoovered]

welcome aboard!  I have a very similiar situation and understand how you feel in many ways.  I love my PPD wife very much.  To me it is a matter of degree and mine has gotten worse over time and periodically totally loses it resulting in cruel and abusive language.
I am trying to stick in there and the toolbox tips do really help.  One thing I would ad is that I think these folks tend to be incredibly intelligent and quit crafty when it comes to getting to you and getting what they want.

This is a great forum to vent and get advice.