« Last post by moondance on Yesterday at 04:25:44 PM »
We were supposed to be moving March 15 but after what happened today I think I'm going to go on March 1st, the apt. is available I just have to scramble to get the sec. deposit and rent together. He has been very cooperative and even pleasant about this move, has told me its what he wants. He can't wait to start his new life without me. Everyone told me the other shoe would drop and it has. He started verbally attacking me the minute I walked in the door loaded down with moving boxes. Started blaming me for the demise of the marriage, said I've dragged his name through the mud with all our friends and family, how He tried so hard and I never cared, how abusive I've been. I tried to reason with him and lost it crying and yelling. Asked him what other woman would've stayed and put up with his crap for almost 30 years, helping him through 2 suicide attempts, depression, ptsd, and the insanity of his whole alien abduction beliefs. He scared our daughter with his ridiculous story of how he thinks she had an alien experience too. He brought up the night he had a psychotic break when the kids were little. He had always agreed with me that it was, indeed a break with reality. Now he tells me that it was real, he really did see howling, demonic wolves circling our house that night and that he picked up our little girl (2 or 3 at the time) and asked her if she saw them too, and because she said she did he thinks that proves it was real and that she also believed it. Oh my God! Who does that to a child! I'm so angry about this, and feel terrible that I never knew that story. Of course, he could be making that part up or rewriting history as he is so good at. Then he says the alien abductions are still going on and if I would just let him explain the details he knows I would believe him. I've been very sympathetic with him about this issue, I know he must feel scared, but I just can't lie and tell him I believe it too; and for that he says I've betrayed him and been disloyal. At one point I was yelling at him to get out of my face and trying to close the bedroom door while he had his foot against the door so he could keep up his insane, enraged lecture. I finally got the door shut and locked and he continued to stand outside the door droning on and on with his accusations while I'm in the bedroom sobbing for him to just leave me alone.
So-o-o, I'm thinking that as crazy stressful as it will be I should get out as soon as I can. The place is available immediately so if we just take our necessities, personal items and beds we can go and then come back as needed to pack up other stuff. Even if I need to take a friend or relative with me everytime I go back. The problem is my 16 year old son who doesn't see the urgency because he's not been a target as my daughter and I have. So I decide I should fill him in on the alien stuff so he won't be flabbergasted when his Dad inevitably tells him about it. It was actually kind of funny, he had this real blasť look on his face like 'yeah yeah what's the big deal". So I said "did you know about this?" And he says , "yeah Dad told me awhile ago, but I'm not scared about it like you and (his sister) are." Well I'm glad he's not freaked out but I was really curious if he believed him or not and he goes, "Oh no, I don't believe it, it's definitely a sign of mental illness though." I wish I could be as calm and collected as he is. So we shall see what happens. I'm asking my daughter tonight if she can handle leaving sooner than we planned. I really feel like we need to.